Amanda Ramcharitar Yoga

I think there have been many books, theories, practices regarding this topic, letting go of the past.  This subject has entered my life as like many themes; within subtle conversation, and information… I find much of my practice is listening to themes and paying  attention enough to what is being raised, whether by the universe or by my own personal energetic attraction.

For many years i travelled through many lands, this many years of wandering could have been attributed to my thirst for adventure, but i know truthfully my travels held a very deep inward need to understand; the outside world as well as inward.  The dilemma with travel is, that sometimes the outside world is very distracting in its beauty and mystery.   Sometimes it takes being in one place to really see what is emerging from within oneself.   This confrontation with oneself can be quite blinding at first.  The desire for me to escape into travel was immense, probably just as immense as one who has stayed in one place for years and escapes into the bottle, parties, consumption, busyness… Its a quite something to live with ease within one’s own existence…

But what does this take?  Do we have to delve through every memory? Every trauma? Every experience that has shaped us into who we are? Or should we ignore and just live as is?  I truly believe it is within us to find a subtle balance of learning about ourself and artistically enjoying our present reality.   Letting go of residual pain may be the only way to be free of the past, but embracing our total self is just as important so as to carry our souls intact.  These wounds are the battle scars of our existence, they make us beautiful, embracing the wrinkles of our inner psyche allows us to flow on with grace and strength… Like plastic surgery seeking perfection, cutting out our inner trauma, only gives an artificial perfection…

The most beautiful artefacts of human history are the one’s worn with time and cared for with love.  There is nothing like touching a smooth native canoe, made with love, thrashed by the ocean, and laid to rest to be admired as it breaks down back to the cosmos.

As should we…

To finally be present and allow life to continue, let things flow as they do…  to allow the feeling’s of intuition subtly burble into reality and synchronistically be met with the outside world.  The shedding of the cocoon of what once was and the opening of the wings of freedom, to fly!  Enjoy being in the right place, having one’s expression be understood, and enjoy the good feelings surrounding life… Its feeling life flowing like water…  It is beautiful… This layer of existence… All connected… Harmonious… stilling the mind into the present enough to embrace the life around… Wrinkles and all…